Its been awhile...

So I am deeply disappointed in myself...I created this blog in order to track my progress and haven't updated since January? Tsk, tsk....

Now, onto an overview of what's new in my life in regards to my career...

Confidence is Key

Today I met with The Independent Group and I felt it went well although I was a bit scatter-brained. I was so nervous that I FORGOT my head shot and resume (and my wallet). This is a huge problem and to be honest isn't the first time I've done it. I think I need to supply my car with a stack from now on and as for the wallet....well who cares if I have identification or money anyway right?!

This has been an issue of mine for quite awhile now. I tend to forget, or make mistakes due to the lack of self-confidence that I have. The interesting aspect about this is when I am in public I am completely confident, outgoing, etc. However, it seems that when I'm being judged I freeze up. In school this was the case with test-taking and now it pertains to auditions.

• In high school I was in sports and didn't really mind what individuals thought of me until my boyfriend at the time would watch me. I would freeze up....it was bad.

Anyway, moral of the story is...I make mistakes that shouldn't be made. Especially in such a competitive industry. Wait, let me backtrack...I used to make mistakes due to nervousness. I'm done. Not only does this take away from my presence, but also my talent. I am a great actress--I know this, but how is any one supposed to take a chance and believe I am talented if I screw up auditions? I spoke to my friend Mark Measures today who told me what I need to do is just invision the people interviewing me as no different than myself. I mean who gets nervous amongst peers?

Work

So I'm going to be honest here. I haven't been working much at all whether it be in modeling or acting or in a "normal" occupation. I am consistently applying for work, but still no luck. I've basically been doing promotional modeling work, private parties (bartending or serving here and there), and extra work (Non-Union). Now don't get me wrong, I am grateful and although extra work is minimum wage it is a great opportunity to learn, but I can't live off of minimum wage, I just can't. I do adore the individuals who book me at Central Casting though...great company! Anyway, I am constantly trying to improve upon myself (without classes...no job = no classes). Here are the things I've done since being here:

• Role in short film directed by Spike Jonze (see previous blog)
  
• Featured extra on Entourage
  
• Photo shoot for Dr. Weil-Baby
  
• Shoot for Ultimate Bet Commercial (Phil Hellmuth)

That's about it so far...I have a couple auditions this week so I'm crossing my fingers. Please do the same:)


So as of now I'll be waiting for the management firm to contact me and keep on truckin'...thanks for reading!